Friday 23 March 2012

I Spy

This blog i am writing on befalf of my readers to make them realise something, as if it is their own testimony.

I confess that i know myself. My sins are always before me. i am not confused about my inner being. i know i am proud,liar,disobedient, greedy for power and money. i know how much i hate or love myself,others and God. i am a pretender. My 'Me' is different than 'Myself '.My myself is hidden from others but my me is visible to everybody. None knows my thoughts, my desires which i cherish in my mind and heart, only God knows. Some times these thoughts and desires are even unknown to me. They make me surprise when they come out. I long to do good, control my behaviour but sometimes i fail, unable to perform anything unselfishly good. Meseems i have dual personalities which are contradictory to each other. As if there are hidden chambers deep dpwn in my heart which are full of unrighteousness. i am defeated by the attractive evils of this world. i want to get rid of them but cant. Why i am like this? Which one is my true identity? Am i good or a bad person? i think something but work differently. i do something which i never thought of doing.i speak something which i never planed to speak. i want to show myself righteous which i am not! i show that i love and forgive everybody but in fact not true. i say long prayers, give good advices to others but behind closed doors i watch pornos. i donate to buy good name for myself. i sing devotionals but plan to murder people with my words. i dont practice what i think are good. Will you still love me?-some one asked. Well, God still loves me. Devil  hates me for my truthfulness. I care a fig for the devil.

Can u identify yourself with me? If you can, you are a truthful person, pure in heart.

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